What I'll Still Have.

I made this list about six months ago, and it feels relevant again tonight. This is in no particular order.

1. Floorplans and house listings
2. Libby
3. Cumberland County or other library
4. Tutoring
5. My benefits
6. Oliver's benefits
7. Medicare
8. My ink drawer
9. My desk
10. My beautiful desk chair (white wood with pistachio green upholestry)
11. Bookcases
12. Hundreds of books I own
13. Thousands of books I can read
14. My Kindle library
15. My ability to read
16. My old journals
17. Oliver's smiles
18. Occasional phone calls with my mom, during which she helps me sort out my brain
19. My makeup
20. Loft.com
21. Amazon
22. Drives and dinners with Dad
23. Alida/therapy
24. The pink velvet loveseat
25. My gray suede armchair
26. My denim chaise
27. My pink blanket (I still sleep with it under my head)
28. My pillow
29. My bed blankets
30. My creativity
31. Oliver's songs
32. My music if not my playlists
33. My Jane Eyre doll
34. My Jo (Little Women) trunk set, which I searched for for over a decade!
35. My London Cissy
36. My Scarlett Cisette
37. My Violette Cisette
38. My Beth (Little Women) trunk set
39. My Anne Shirley doll
40. The teal side table
41. Messages with Megan
42. My birthday
43. Birthday presents
44. Christmas presents
45. Christmas lights
46. Cinnamon-scented candles
47. My teaching ability
48. Bruce texts
49. Bruce Barnes/coffee outings
50. Watching TV shows with Bruce and Corey
51. Caramel iced lattes
52. Chicken Caesar wraps
53. Burgers
54. Barq's
55. Sprite
56.  Blackberry ginger ale
57. Tiny Dr. Peppers
58. Tiny Cherry Cokes
59. Apple juice
60. Theatre tickets
61. My publications
62. My poems
63. Bella Grace magazine
64. Bella Grace Field Guide magazine
65. Art Journaling magazine
66. In Her Studio magazine
67. Oh Reader magazine
68. Sticker subscriptions
69. Violette stickers
70. Etsy stickers
71. Book T-shirts
72. Glitter shoes (TOMS and others)
73. My star sneakers
74. My sequin sneakers
75. My tall black boots
76. My green boots
77. The white wicker wardrobe
78. My white metal bed
79. Old Bay
80. My pretty pillows (snowflakes, mermaids...)
81. My water tumbler a.k.a. growler
82. Cold water
83. Seasoned chicken (Old Bay, Italian dressing, lemon pepper, poultry seasoning)
84. My fairy floor cushion
85. My Annie Stegg Phantom prints
86. My Cinderella canvas
87. My personalized favorite books print
88. My fairy and mermaid art
89. My Jane Eyre print
90. The rest of my art
91. My Mary Engelbriet mermaid print
92. My travel memories
93. New York City
94. Broadway
95. Fresh Sugar Radiant Rose lip balm (fuchsia)
96. Fresh Sugar Icon lip balm (red, bought in NYC)
97. All Fresh Sugar lip balms, especially Advanced Therapy, which is the only treatment that really helps my chapped lips
98. My turquoise and gold ottoman trays
99. My pen collection
100. BLX pens
101. Precise V5 RT pens
102. Gelly Roll pens
103. Sparkle Pop pens
104. Krazy Pop pens
105. Hybrid Dual Metallic pens
106. Ooly glitter pens
107. Colored lead mechanical pencils
108. Lotion tissues
109. philosophy 3-in-1 scented gels (like Pumpkin Icing!)
110. My habits tracker
111. Poetry
112. Writing poetry
113. Submission possibilities
114. Musicals
115. Phantom
116. My art books
117. French lifestyle/fashion books
118. Fashion art
119. Leggings
120. Oliver's answers 
121. My Ariel jacket
122. My star cardigan
123. My cardigan collection
124. My gold cardigan
125. My gunmetal cardigan
126. My bling beanies
127. My interesting eyes (green with a thick teal ring)
128. My vision
129. My hearing
130. Taste
131. Touch
132. Smell
133. Wallflowers
134. Starry, my cat
135. Mermaids
136. Fairies
137. My heated throw
138. My heated wrap
139. Block books
140. New releases by favorite authors
141. Ada Limon
142. Amy Gerstler
143. Best American Poetry
144. Best Small Fictions
145. Sarah Addison Allen
146. Marisa de los Santos
147. My MFA
148. My favorite books collection
149. Alexandra Stoddard books
150. Yoga
151. Music
152. Broadway showtunes
153. My car
154. Scented handsoaps
155. Wish lists
156. Glitter
157. Art journaling
158. Collage making
159. My Summa Cum Laude
160. Stickers
161. My blank journal collection
162. Italian journals
163. Peter Pauper Press
164. My mental/emotional strength
165. New journals to find
166. DesignWorks journals
167. Good JuJu journals
168. Oliver's labeling T-shirts
169. My Betsey Johnson necklaces
170. My earrings
171. My bracelets
172. My ability to daydream
173. Planning projects
174. My best friend
175. Sunlight
176. Fireplaces
177. Strong men close by if I need help
178. Support from my mom and stepdad
179. My dignity
180. The body I worked hard for
181. The moon
182. Disney princesses
183. Michaels
184. Craft stores
185. Target
186. 2nd & Charles
187. Barnes
188. Bookstores to discover
189. Carrot cake
190. White Oreos
191. Free time
192. Joy
193. The Brontes
194. My chandelier
195. Words
196. Facebook
197. My website
198. Potential for love
199. My identity
200. Movies
201. Seahorses
202. Minnie
203. Pinterest
204. Zillow
205. Mom's advice
206. Weekends off
207. Possibility for travel
208. Rhinestones
209. Fairy stars
210. Glitter paint
211. My teal glitter scissors
212. Rubber stamps
213. Metallic ink pads
214. Shimmer ink
215. Coconut milk
216. Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin from Bath & Body Works
217. Sugared Lemon Zest " "
218. Fresh Cut Lilacs " "
219. Violet perfume
220. Artists
221. K. Y. Craft
222. Amy Brown
223. Christian Schloe
224. Annie Stegg
225. Purple
226. Pink
227. Moonlight pens
228. Pastel colors
229. My star sheets
230. Into the Woods 
231. Urban Decay
232. Moondust makeup
233. My glitter case
234. ColourPop palettes
235. Natasha Denona palettes
236. Carrabbas
237. My fancy glasses
238. A joyful child
239. My soul
240. Short stories
241. Buddy reads
242. Fashion writing
243. Rachel Weisz
244. Bill Hader
245. Paul Rudd
246. Funny videos
247. Movie quotations
248. My quotations composition books
249. Snowflakes
250. Fairy lights
251. Swimming
252. My headphones
253. Macadamia nuts
254. White chooclate
255. Doctors
256. The Haymount Institute
257. My language
258. Bruce's couch
259. Orgasms
260. Presents and prizes
261. Trees
262. Storms
263. Cinnamon sugar
264. Brie and honey bagels
265. Olive oil
266. Green
267. Teal
268. Atlas Stationers
269. TWSBI pens
270. My music nib pen
271. Sarah Bareilles
272. The story of Cinderella
273. The story of The Twelve Dancing Princesses
274. The story of Snow White and Rose Red
275. Seasons
276. Ice
277. My snowflake mat
278. My glitter paper towel holder
279. Almost 18 years in love
280. My DVDs
281. Books about books
282. Family
283. My reading history
284. My driver's license
285. My teaching experience
286. Bubble baths
287. Food writing
288. My lamps
289. Sunshine naps
290. Cheap Joe's Art Supplies
291. Alani energy drinks
292. Determination
293. Prayer
294. Hope
295. Hydrangeas
296. Fuchsia
297. Wild violets
298. Oliver hugs
299. Sparkly makeup highlighters
300. Glitter highlighter markers
301. Gel highlighters
302. Mug bowls
303. Velvet
304. Star clothes
305. Irregular Choice heels
306. My shoe collection
307. Dangling earrings
308. Oliver's saying, "I good."
309. '80s rock
310. Purple knives
311. Experience as a second reader for a magazine
312. Character/art page flags
313. Cinderella film
314. My top frames
315. Xanax
316. Polka dot dresses
317. Brene Brown
318. Weetzie Bat
319. Books on writing
320. To-read lists/shelves
321. Bookends
322. Fabric bins
323. The necklace Mom made me
324. Theatre memories
325. Mary Engelbriet
326. Susan Branch
327. Warm water
328. Buddy time
329. Starry snugs
330. Sephora
331. Ulta
332. Pesto pasta
333. Metallic surfaces
334. Windchimes
335. Oliver's talking about Pete the Cat
336. Rollerskates
337. Eye shadow palettes
338. My suits
339. My dressy jackets
340. My favorite photo
341. Mandy
342. A LIttle Princess
343. Kate Middleton
344. My pen stand
345. Thinx
346. Purple DVD player
347. Green grass
348. Clematis
349. My pretty magnets
350. My nose stud
351. Chad at Harris Teeter
352. Buddy gifts
353. Packages
354. Cupcake art
355. Key art
356. Graphic novels
357. Clean mornings
358. Starting new journals
359. My pretty dish towels
360. My shower curtains
361. Polka dots
362. Star prints
363. Magic
364. Cutting up magazines
365. Gorgeous calendars
366. White end tables
367. Papaya art
368. Red grapes
369. Chocolate mousse
370. Paris
371. London
372. Italy

That's how far I got. Here are some I'm adding today:

1. My job
2. Ice peppermint mochas
3. Cool Whip and chocolate pudding
4. Can whipped cream and sprinkles
5. The Kate Spade quotation She Leaves a Little Sparkle Wherever She Goes
6. Prayer
7. Miniature daffodils
8. My conscience
9. My meds/sense of general reality
10. My love for myself
11. My project table
12. Carmen Gimenez Smith
13. Looking at Madame Alexander dolls on Ebay
14. Memories of and books by my teachers
15. My Queens connections
16. Hopefully, more friends
17. Faith
18. Windows
19. Jimmy Fallon
20. Warmth
21. OTC pain killers
22. Alan's saying, "I have no doubt you belong here."
23. Kay's saying, "Obviously, you can do this."
24. Cotton tank tops
25. Hipsters
26. Writing groups
27. Walks
28. Long gripper toes
29. Pretty socks
30. Anne Klein glitter wedge heels
31. My memories from BCC
32. My traumatic but triumphant birth story
33. Knowledge that I fought
34. Knowledge that my love is real
35. My self-improvement
36. My inner freedom
37. Contentment
38. Life
39. Panera
40. Sleep meds
41. Asparagus
42. Broccoli
43. Potato skins
44. Cheese
45. Help
46. My confidence
47. My compassion
48. My self-worth
49. My introspection
50. My potential