Nourish/Challenge: Week 46.

Time is confusing me. I look at my Google calendar and at the sticky notes in my journal many times a day. Maybe I can start the new year better-oriented.

Thanksgiving was lovely. Josh kept watch over Oliver, so I could talk and listen. James came over and made me laugh as usual. We sat with Mom and Shane around an outdoor fire. I enjoyed the food but didn't overeat--a delicate skill.

At home, I tried to read poetry for an hour. It should have been easier than it was. I'll keep trying.

While Oliver is in the bathroom, I now do wall push-ups, squats, and side bends. I need the exercise, and I want to use the time.

I took a morning bath and loved it. Sometimes just moving an indulgence a bit renews the luxury.

I challenged myself, but nourishment was right there on my path too.

Nourish/Challenge: Week 42.

Time is bending and swirling for me. Dates confuse me. But I'll keep trying to tell the stories.

This past week, I got a lot of great time with Josh. We had time on Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. We laugh and watch silly videos together. We clean and nap.

I've been trying to stay on track with Google Calendar and bright pink sticky lists. Pink has recently become quite important, even nourishing.

Oliver did fine in speech therapy. He had no trouble going with Ms. H. Whew. He has also been more affectionate lately. I'm not sure why unless it's just because it's that he feels better after his frenectomy. But I'm just so excited that he lets me hug and kiss him.

And our BCBA is so great; she and I meet for about an hour once a week. I'm amazed that she takes the time for that. Apparently, she's amazed that I take the time! It started as a challenge, but now, it's a relief.

If I Were More Courageous.

(and had more time...and more money...)

• I'd attempt new writing.
• I'd edit and submit old writing.
• I'd buy skates and skate in the parking lot.
• I'd brave the quick kids and go to a skating rink, even if just by myself.
• I'd do karaoke.
• I'd light a match.
• I'd go get a chair massage at the mall.
• I'd give cooking another try.
• I'd be able to enjoy travel and visits more.
• I'd work out or swim often.
• I wouldn't look away during horror movies.
• I'd take dance lessons--modern, tap, return to Irish step....
• I'd get involved in community theatre.
• I might pierce my nose--just a tiny sparkle on one side.
• I might get a tattoo, a Carl Sagan quotation on my left side.
• I'd read the challenging books.
• I might try a church.
• I might learn to sew my own clothes.
• I might drive more.
• I'd be more adventurous with Oliver.
• I might have had a second child.
• I'd dye my hair teal.
• I'd actually use sparkly black eyeshadow.
• I might try painting.
• I might get manicures.
• I'd wear red more often.
• I might ruthlessly edit my wardrobe.
• I'd enjoy the Christmas spirit more thoroughly.
• I've actively pursue many forms of inspiration.